January 3rd 2023
I don’t feel happy, but who really feels happy when you are practicing incredible resilience. I am sad, I feel like my grind is consuming me and I’m simply doing time until my contract with the military is over and I can take this leash off my neck and do and say as I please. I am angry, I am angry but I can control it and I release it at my set time in the gym, the faces I make whilst lifting are more rage then grit more often lately. But, This is fine. Men aren’t always supposed to be happy and especially for a up and coming ambitious male such as myself who is only getting started in this competitive world. I am only twenty years old and yet I am so much further then other men my age. I trust the grind, and I trust the process. I will continue to restrain my emotions and I will continue to rage in the gym and in my martial arts, such is the way of the superior male. I can count on one hand how many time I have seen my father get truly emotional. I have seen anger… but we are only human and a man getting angry isn’t uncommon. I am trusting the grind this year and I cant wait to see myself by the end of the year. The strength I will have gained and the mass I will have added to my body. The wisdom and stoic teachings I will have absorbed. The continued maturity of my mind. Have patience Nolan.
You. My friend reading this, trust the grind this year. Have patience.
